It was no shock to my colleagues that I heavily produced my own wedding – an event to my surprise that landed in the pages of Modern Bride Magazine’s local edition. I was smart, talented and driven in all ways. But it wasn’t always this way…
Right out of college during my first job in television my paid vacations weren’t about beaches and bikinis-they were about personal development retreats and workshops. I was just there to have fun and learn about me but I woke up for the first time and uncovered core wounds and fears that I never thought I had. I typically gave away my power, I feared being emotionally abandoned and I was afraid to speak my truth. Geez – who knew! But as I began to wake up, do my personal work and heal these areas, I soon had mentors and teachers telling me I was a natural healer and I had a unique ability. I Did??
I barely could comprehend what I was being told. I thought my talent was in television but it would be decades later I would finally realize my natural gift was helping others realize their own true purpose.
My turning point came at the heels of having kids. My executive bosses were looking for rock stars to run their shows. I was already in that position and I remember thinking: “I don’t think I have it in me anymore, I’ve already been ‘all out’ and they want more? With a network push, I totally got why they asked for more but I had to really ask myself “What do I really want for my life??”
For the first time, my answer was a ‘no’ – I just wanted to rest, raise kids for a few years and get inspired again. (ironically just as I made my decision, my mother was given 30 days to live after a six-year battle with cancer so I was able to fly across the country to be with her full time. )
Today, I work with women who are just like me – successful and creative who have had the career, the projects and everything they envisioned but are truly bored and burned out. They show up at work or with their kids, but they have a deeper knowing they’re meant for something else. They have no idea what that is–they feel lost and confused and they fear they’ll have to give up their hard-earned experience and earning potential.